++042 the cracking under pressure

hari ini setelah saye begidu stressed nyer dgn sebijik ofismet ituh, saye telah menghempaskan brg ke meja.
dan mengambil kunci kereta dan purse dan get out of the office. hehehe.
kemudian, ku jalan2 [tak jauh mane, area ofis gok].
dan ternampak cats whiskers on sale.
lalu, ku masuk dan menjalankan ektibiti biase wanita under pressure yakni: retail therapy. kononnye.
dan ku menjumpe jue ex-ako ituh. di situ lah dimane lagi.
semase saye membayar dress comel yg saye mengbelinyeh, ade deringan telepon.
sape call? jehan telah call the cashier utk mencarik jue yg sedang dlm fitting room.
sekian sahaje cerite hari ini.

soalan: kenape jehan tak terus call hp jue?

ps: cats whiskers sale yo!
ps2: saye beli dress, kamu rase saye akan pakaikah? ;p
ps3: mari pergi laundry bar tonite.
ps4: saye mahu ke pokdiksen lah. kamu mahu pergi tak?

currently listening to: estranged - itu kamu
currently feeling: stressed
i wanna be:in pokdiksen.

++041 the videLnote 3 : friendship still remains.. lah.

:((
the partner in crime is safely engaged.
i'm happy for her, yes. but, i felt exactly sad at the same time. :((. how on earth everybody around me is getting tied-up, man? mamammamamama
i'm not sad because i'm not engage/married yet, but, im sad when one by one of my besprens gone.. huuuu :(
[u're saying that u'll stay the same close-fren even after u already married hah? boleh blah :p]
lepas ni, kalo ade lagi bespren yg nak kawen/engage, harus aku pegi bakar rumah diorg 8-x, hoho kejam tak kejam? ngeahahaha.
tapi takpe, selagi imah tak kawen, selagi tu aku rilek2 je.. tapi, kalo imah tetibe nak kawen, i'll take very urgent step of getting a step-son. cute lil one. heh. for i dun know if i still have the energy to start a relationship anymore.

anyways, mari tinjau o'a mekap...

dan, cara2 pakai tudung alaf kini..

all in all, congratulations OAG!!!!!!!
lepas kawen, korang duduk ah same2 aku lagi. tayah pindah kluar.. 8-x etetetetete gelak saitonurojim.

currently listening to:muse - starlight
currently feeling:busy, heceh.
i wanna be:a good girl of kos.

++040 the tagged thing again

i got tagged.

Part 1: On the Outside
Name : Miss videl a.k.a che'pah comel
Date of Birth : 31st december 19*89. ewww, i'm 18 kan?emememe [1st lie]
Current Status : janda berhias :-j
Eye Colour : *sambil tgk cermin*black dan sedikit hazel gittew.
Hair Colour : blonde :))
Righty or Lefty : rightous & still wishing i was both :
Zodiac Sign : capricorn.

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage : Malay with a tint of chinese.
Your Fear : Snakes and all reptiles.
Your Weakness: playboy.. tsk tsk
Your Perfect Pizza : yg sedikit rotinye, tetapi lebih isi ayamnye, atau, kasi ayam teruslah, susah2 sejjaaa :-j

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : bad dream again :( [for almost countless nites]
Your bedtime : 12midnite to 8am. perfecto!
Your most missed memory : of being loved...

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Vanilla Coke *hehehhh, sori tersame yewww*
McDees or Burger King : Mc D nye fries, BK nye mushroom swiss nyam! *hehehhh, tersame lagik yew*
Single or Group Dates : tatau bleh?
Adidas or Nike : adidas on shoes, nike on shirts :-??
Lipton Tea or Nestea : teh o ais limau..
Chocolate or Vanilla : eskem vanilla ikea.
Cappucino or Coffee : Cappucino

Part 5: Do You…
Smoke : NO. tapi, er pernah gak try..
Curse : sokmo.

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol : hampir. no lah.
Gone to the mall : yeap, for nothing
Been on stage : nopsy
Eaten sushi : Nope.
Dyed your hair : nope

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game : dalam bilik sauna 8-x
Changed who you were to fit in : i dunno, i changed like everyday, everytime.

Part 8 : Marrriage
Age you’re hoping to be married : hehe, malu, tapi hopefully b4 30. amin.

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye colour : clark kent's eyes.
Hair colour : hehe, dyed haired guys :x i love.
Short or long hair : Long lah kot.

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago : deleting takeru's answers.
1 hour ago : mengupload fotopej hehehh
4 1/2 hours ago : ermm, *perah otak*, kat bege king tgh tapau for lunch kot:-??
1 month ago : tetunggang tebalik.

Part 11: Finish The Sentence
I love : u
I feel : like island-vacationing, like rite now.
I hate : it that i dun hate him.
I hide : my tears from u all kan, u all penah tgk i cry ke ek? [except during movies hehehe]
I miss : ehemm, my mantal musyuk.
I need : hugs n kisses.

Part 12: Tag 5 People
1) ellycious.
2) imah
3) naiza
4) wanieyyy-chan
5) ako mustapa [ngehehe incase dia jumpe balik blog nih]

currently listening to: disagree - crumbs
currently feeling: a lil bit aneh.
i wanna go to pulau!!!!! any pulau would do.

++suddenly

Suddenly the thought of losing you haunts me. The thought of not having to bug you anymore or to be bugged by you. The thought of not having to exchange bad words with you anymore. The thought of not seeing your sarcastic smirk anymore. The thought of not seeing your angry face or a sweet smile or the "who?me?" face anymore. The thought of not hearing your "childish little cry when you gatal buntut" anymore.

That would take quite a lot from my life. Maybe I'm not that prepared after all or am I just imagining things that I assume. Leave me you will one day and that is a certain fact according to my logic mind. For sure. Life is for living and changes would be made even though certainly not by me. Hell! I hate that fact and I must have written it a dozen times.

*editted entry from papakerma, but i felt exactly the same, so i copypasted.

++039 the bespren's wedding : laily & hilmi

eehehheh.. i arrived safely at our hotel family suite room around 2am saturday morning.. lantas terus mengkiokkan diri didalam kegelapan malam2 yg romentiks..nyumnyummmm~

inilah view daripada bilik yg tidak tinggi. 7th floor.

kemodian, kami mempergi k.t. pagi ituh.. kononnye nak kejar time laily nikah, tapi tak sempat pong :-j. pastu, mcm traffic bejalan jalan kura2, dan didepan plak ade kancil aneh bertayarkan tayar kereta kembara ke hape? ko pikir ko rok ah?

kemudian, kami sekereta ialah menyumpah2 makcik busuk yg buat map kat kad kawen tuh [read: lailybusuk], sbb map dia sgt laaaaaa tak membantu. dia pikir kiterang ni org tganu???? hnsf hnsf.. maka, tepakse tanye org yg lalulalang: budak naik motor tuhaa, dan tepakselah semorang mcm nak bercakap slang tganu kan???

sile perhatikan papan tanda rumah lely tuh: 'HJ MAN BOLA' ngehehehe, mempandangkan ayah lely ialah coach bola sepak perlis. 8-x.

inilah dia HJ MAN BOLA nyer... yg pakai speki ittewww

kitak makang duluwwwww

makcik nih sebok nak begambo, anak dok menguwekkk.. wuekkk.. simolat tuh montah kat ai :(( jahat tauuuuu :((

 hehehe, memperkenalkan laily's big 'biarlah rahsia' :

ok. weird that i loike this picture. hehehe, laily jgn marah yeh. :D
aksi bebas gittew.
dan kenapalah 'e' dan husna pandang guek? guek tatau wo.

rite after the wedding at laily's, kamik pon polang ke hotel lain dan tido sepam. setelah kojol agak lame, daku pon bangun dan mandi. dan besiap2 untuk merayap nih:

kami dibawa pergi oleh sepasang kelamin ke makan budokkkk!!! 8-x

kami tidaklah kemanemane melainkan ke pantai batu buruk yg tidak nampak buruk pong :-??

yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyay berchandha di paserang pantaing.

setelah penat berlari2an pantai, kami pong pekene air buah gelas beso. pow si trex busuk. ekeke. nyummmmms...

pade keesokan paginye pule, kami mempergi ke wedding eye-t pula. eye-t ialah budak surr3y juwer ye.pengapit dia ialah henseng lah :">

cari brg tersembunyi: mekap-man dia. pon hemsem yewwww :-j. yg baju ijau ye yew.

kemudian, sbb bob ialah satu2nye kejadian lelaki dlm geng kami, make harus amek gamba ngan bob the cameraman..

dan mcm biaselah, amek gamba reramai ngan penganten.

kemudian, wow, hehehe, wow sbb bawak kete manual. tapi, daku bawak kat hi-way je :-".

dan, singgah makang sateyng k4jang. emmmphhhhh, satey ialah my ice ice baby. dadah.

eh, begitu lekasnya waktu berlalu eh?

penat, tapi, cukop beertinya percutian kali ini, kerana, daku butoh kan sebuah perhentian lain.

[ok, guek tgh dgr lagu indon yea]
moreeeeee pictures at my fotopages
currently listening to: sheila on 7 - anugerah terindah yg pernah kumiliki
currently missing my soulmate. whoever u are.
i wanna tgk wayang ah :(

++038 the videLnote 2

i overheard the bosses conversation at the next table during our company lunch @ royal selangor club, yesterday..
"u can even play tennis on jalan tun razak!!"
[of how clear the traffic would be on this coming monday and tuesday]

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!~
and happy holidays yuuuuuuuu.
i'm heading pantai timur tonite, until sunday. tai tai :-h
currently listening to:john mayer - daughters
currently missing the usuals.
i wanna be:a supermodel.

++037 the mmusic unplugged seven videos

for red ribbon supporters only.
red ribbon - best i ever had @ MMUsic unplugged SEVEN - 14th february 2007

red ribbon - love song @ MMUsic unplugged SEVEN - 14th feb 2007

red ribbon - sickcyclecarousel @ MMUsic unplugged SEVEN - 14th feb 2007

currently listening to:vertical horizon - best i ever had
currently missing u
i wanna be:a supermodel!~

++036 the mmusic unplugged seven

1. LDP jam mcm kentut last night! bukan lah tahap 'bumper to bumper crawl' lagi dah! dah tahap 'crawling in my car' dah.
2. redribbon performed 'best i ever had', 'sick cycle carousel', and 'love song', acoustically. they were the first band, so, mcm agak kusut mase memule masuk tuh kot :-??, pastu ok je. ai laik as usual, i'm a red-ribbon fan anyways.
3. sluar wanewani a.k.a fancypants nyanyi sumting stupid mcm bes, mbe sbb mamat men gitar tuh bes ke ape ek?
4. u think vocalist doppergangers mcm brandonboyd eh? i think, i dun like him. but he rawks. selambak skek rase nak bejoget ek. hehe XD
5. andy flop-poppy and the gang rawk the nite tho. i mean, who wouldnt like a deretan of 5 guitarist [andy, yazer AF3, reza, takkenal, takkenal (penulis lagu?)]. they 5 sit on a chair, all wiv guitar each, and nyanyi sehingge habislah malam valentine ituh. songs by them that i remember:
stesen terakhir (lagu baru andy, kisah benar atuk dan nenek dia)
cinta, atas nama cinta, jika kau bercinta lagi
ke hujung dunia [i really2 like this song, cannot help], syair sang paripariparuparu
yazer nyanyi lagu sekuntum mawar merah sebuah puisi, dan lagu baru dia yg tajuk pon blom tawu lagi, dan lagi satu lagu kot. x engat ah.
lagi, ntah tak engat dah.

so, takpelah kalo takde sesape nak celebrate valentines day ngan saye kan. :(

currently listening to: damien rice - blower's daughter
currently feeling: sleepy
i wanna learn to play drums lah.

++035 the videLnote [deathnote]

mulai hari ini, saye ingin menketerjadik pengnulis komik
[inspired by seth - the OC. saye suke seth yayyy]
[2nd inspiration from deathnote.]
[my 1st attempt: click picture for larger view]

happy valentines yuh wol !!!!!!~currently listening to:papa jahat? ewww
currently feeling:i felt lost. seriously lost.
i wanna be:kate winslet

++034 the day they hv audition

i arrived safely at 11.45pm late lastnite at my mom's.
after throwing away my scarf, mom looked at me and said:
"apsal ngko tembam sgt ni dik? tgk pipi ngko tuh.. hurghhh.. tuhla, mkn byk sgt.. jgnlah mkn malam byk2, mkn sekali je sehari biar kurus sikit.. "
she said, sambil mengeluarkan nasi dan daging rebus cicah air asam campo daun kesum, my favourite. dan sambal kentang+bilis. dan puyuh masak cili. haa, yelah tuh suruh aku jgn mkn byk kan?

rite after that, i went to bed, crying n sleeping.

today, as of now, i'm sitting at my dad's table in his office, willing to help him with his loads. hehe.

happy weekends all. sape ade keje lebih boleh suruh saye dtg tolong. saye free.

and gudlak redribbon! i always support u all.
currently listening to:switchfoot - on fire
currently dying
i wanna be:katie holmes. plak!~

++033 the choices

seriously,

between
a 'bolehlah, alimlah jugak, tidak tinggal semayang, tidak melakukan maksiat dan tidak meminom arak' fren who didnot care if i'm sinking or i'm drowning or i'm even exist..
and
a 'budak mabok, suke merogol, semayang subuh setahun sekali, suka membunuh kucing dan suka terkangkang' fren who didnot fail to take me out of my sinkingness.. and asked me if im ok.

i would actually choose the latter.

this is about fren we talking about, not future husband yoll!

currently listening to: izwan pilus ? - indah lelapku ?
currently busy.
i wanna be tough, but infatuation caught me heart. damn.

++032 the girlfriends

1. tolong, tolong msg saye jika anda tahu bila ada siaran ulangan 'anugerah bintang popular berita harian' tempohari. tolong yeh.
2. truth hurts, but i prefer it that way. love hurts, but sumtimes its a good hurt.
3, hukum karma saks big time.
4.i love my girlfriends.

currently listening to:311-love song
currently feeling:sad
i wanna hold your hand. :(

++031 the 'the holiday'

the only reason why i wanna watch 'the holiday' is because i heart jude law. excuse my typical expression towards ah-hemn hemsem boy ;)) hehe *menyeringai*
and, ofkos i know nothing about the storyline, i looked at the poster at the movie-ticket-counter and saw jude law and thought of giving the movie a chance and my 'night at the museum' sudah tidak di pawagam. :(.
[rite before that, i went to cineleisure, and no movies are approachable, only murderball, and i watched that OMAIGOD!!! rupe2nye ialah cerite documentary mcm citer rockschool tuh, dan yayyy, 10 saat selepas duduk, daku terus cabut kluar!]. and stret to oneutama to watch another movie, the holiday.
ok, back to 'the holiday'

i dunno that the story was made at surr3y! yea, our surr3y, surr3y! hoi bebudak surr3y tolong lah bace nih!

hehehe, over plak aku. i mean, susah tau nak tgk surr3y glemer, sape jeee tahu psl surr3y kan? hehe, i myself tidak tahu kewujudan surr3y ituh, not until i have to apply for university during msc arituh. kottak, haram aku tatau surr3y tuh menatang hape. on the first few glances, terase ek-eh mcm kukenal tpt inih, especeli the part where kate winslet naik train nak balik rumah, huhuhuhuuuuu i miss SURR3Y!! and guildford especially.

not until, cameron diaz was trying to find a holiday place, which was: surr3y, barulah ku yakin, benarlah inih surr3y! hehuhu, once again, i miss surr3y! [tho tak byk mane pon adegan2 di surr3y tuh ngehehe, ahqaq mmg over :p boooooo]
and about the storyline, typical kot ke? psl pompuan mcm haku and i like to quote kate winslet's:
'Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time she does something that tells you she's no good, you ignore it. And every time she comes through and suprises you, she wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she's not for you.'
'It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. '.
amazingly true. argh, im not gonna comment, u'll think i'm katewinslet's pathetic.
after all, its juz another jude law kinda movie kan. hehe.

ok lah, the movie is highly recommended to those who miss surr3y that much.
or else, u can alwiz watch my movies collection eh eh eh gelak gatai ;)
[video kite joget lambak kat battersea court]

thanx for listening. happy weekends all.
currently listening to: damien rice - the blowers daughter
currently missing atuk. [syyyyyhh :-$]
i hope i'm gonna survive these.